California Uber Alles


Everything I did today was in preparation of my trip. I leave tomorrow. I love to fly so I feel good about that. Liz came over and gave the boys haircuts. They look so good. And she cut my wig! Now it looks much more like “real hair”. Well it is human hair. But now it looks like my hair. I love you Liz…you are so good to us.

I went to the mall with Shayna to get some things to wear in California. I found great things and it was all on sale. I was really lucking out. Then I found my way to Sephora. It is really overwhelming to walk into a beauty store when you feel less than beautiful. A male employee politely asked usif he could help me. I stammered for a second and said “No, I need a girl.” Sorry… I just could not do the I have breast cancer thing with him. He pointed me to the most attractive blond in the store and said, “Amy can help you.” Of course I thought can’t they hire ugly people? I explained to Amy that I was on chemo and that my eyebrows had fallen out. She and her associate Luna were immediately interested in my cancer and asked excellent questions..they asked how they would know they had it if it does not come in the form of a lump? We talked about IBC. Which always makes me feel like I have done my good deed in informing women. Amy was so sweet and showed me how to do my eyebrows with a kit they have. I looked so much more like “me”. I really appreciate pretty women who know how to make other women beautiful. We love Sephora.

So I will get onto a plane at 6:30 am with my fake hair, brows, and lashes…and try to look normal. Kelly’s grandmother will be picking me up from the airport in San Fransisco. From there I think Karen {Kelly’s mom} will be picking me up and we will drive to Southern California. Wednesday we will go to the clinic for my appointment at Epeius Biotechnologies. And then from what I heard it will be a long wait. I do not have much more information than that. But I will do my best to post while I am away.

The kids will be with friends for a few days at least until Thursday when they will be with Kelly. I am nervous and excited about getting into the trial. I was very unsure what to expect. I really hope all of you can pray for me. I know that no matter what the outcome I will fight. Today I feel like a fighter. I refuse to accept the “inevitability” of this. I feel very much that I need to be here for my children. And I know that know matter how difficult that road may be I have to go through this and come out the other end.

Shayna said today that she thinks it is hard for people to believe I am sick because I look good and smile a lot. We talked about the fact that my happiness does not revolve around my health or a specific outcome. We have to be ok with whatever is thrown our way. I think that is why cliche’s like “roll with the punches”..”life hands you lemons”.. exist. I don’t let my circumstances prevent me from enjoying life. Even if it is not the best day, its a day with my family and friends…so its excellent.

So California here I come..for the first time. And hopefully not the last. Pray for me. I love you all. Andrea

7 Responses to “California Uber Alles”

  1. leah says:

    have a great trip, i love to fly too! another thing we have in common, i will pray for you as i do all the time and i will be thinking of you, also as i do all the time.
    i can’t wait to see the kids on monday, i miss them so much!
    well i just wanted to wish you well, and good luck on the trip, and if you can, enjoy yourself!
    love, leah

  2. Ellen B. says:

    Dear Andrea,

    Growing up in a family of writers taught me that eloquence in the written word can indeed paint pictures, and convey feelings deep and raw. Your soul pours through your written words, it’s all there on the page, we feel you intensely, grieve with you, laugh with you. How fitting that you once helped people bring new life into the world as a Bradley instructor. You demystified the birth process for us, but were always reverent when presented with new life. Truly an Earth Mother. Perhaps the idea of you as a true seer, on earth to teach others the deepest truths, is the truth. The ripple effect of this blog shouldn’t be underestimated. It is servicing thousands who read you, and aren’t we all here to work in service to each other, in one way or another? Just want you to know that reading you is helping me get through a tough time, thanks for that. My prayers for you and the family continue.

    much love,
    Ellen B.

  3. Heather says:

    Keeping you huys in our thoughts. Good luck on the trial. Try to enjoy the time you have away. See some sights after your appointment. Go to the beach and relax!

  4. petie gallacher says:

    Dear Andrea,
    Tricia (Margaret Collins’ sister in Toronto) told me about your web site. I now check it often, pray for your recovery, and am reminded that each day is such a gift, not to be taken for granted. I hope you make it into the trial and please know that I’m just another one who’s in your corner. lots of love from Maryland, Petie g.

  5. Brian says:

    Dear Andrea,

    I’ve thought so much about you yesterday and today. I was certainly happy to hear you like to fly, as it’s a long flight! I do know the long drive in the car with Karen must have been wonderful for you both…time to actually ‘visit’ again in person. My Mom is certainly looking forward to meeting You this evening and seeing Karen again after so many years. I’m excited for you all and wish I could be there also to see you again.

    Hopefully this mornings visit to Epeius Biotechnologies went smoothly and will provide ‘the answer’ for a long and loving life still to come with the family. Working for a medical research biotech company here has opended up to me the wonderful world of discoveries that have been made in the last few years. It’s quite amazing, so keep the faith!

    Love You much,

  6. ruthie says:

    I hope you are enjoying California! I love you!

  7. melanie says:

    You are such an inspiration. I will be thinking positive thoughts in your direction, and hope you can enjoy california while there 🙂