Surviving Lent


I was able to get to acupuncture on Saturday. Tucker came along for the ride with Kristine and I. He had a lot of questions about it so I thought Ed could answer them better than me. I just kept telling him I didn’t know I wasn’t an acupuncturist. Ed gave him a little lesson and gave him a gold needle( sterile;wrapped) to go home with. That seemed to please Tucker immensely. I was pleased that I felt a bit better. Less shaky. Less nauseous. I still felt quite exhausted. Kelly told me he thought some of this was psychosomatic. I prayed that he become a more enlightened being and left it at that.

I spent the remainder of Saturday on the couch. All of my children coughing and sneezing. I successfully passed on my cold to all who had the misfortune of encountering me. I apologize to everyone. Sunday was not without its issues, although physically I felt better. Well enough to make a quick trip to Trader Joe’s. And well enough to clean the bathroom and care for Clay. Naomi took Bailey and Clay to Ikea. I took a nap and went to church. I am very glad I had a little time for reflection. Circle of Hope is a beautiful group of people that I adore. It is sometimes the easiest and hardest place to be. I cried during worship (singing). Aubrey squeezed my hand. I am so aware of God’s grace. I need Him so much. As Josh spoke everything he said seemed so relevant and important. Lent is a time of trial. We are like Jesus in the desert. We say no to the powers that be. Awesome. I was moved beyond words. It is hard to be there when it makes me want to weep. I feel very vulnerable. My heart is very soft and I cry easily. Out of joy , sadness, or even reverence. It is easier to stay home and remain unmoved.

After some discussion with Naomi I have decided to take Clay and Bailey and go to Virginia from this coming Friday until the next Tuesday evening. Since it is a chemo week I will leave after acupuncture. Naomi will help me with Clay. And the twins will be with Eileen for all 5 days. Jesse will be here with Kelly and the dog. I think they will be fine. I need a bit of peace and quiet. I need to be rejuvenated. It has been a rough week emotionally. There are many things that I am praying about, trying to accept. I am struggling with the idea of long term chemo. I am waiting on the Lord. I am working through the uncomfortable place that is Lent.

I am waiting for spring. Rebirth. To feel warmth and happiness. This has been a bitter time in many ways. I am praying for some sweetness in my life.

4 Responses to “Surviving Lent”

  1. joshua says:

    sounds like an awesome trip to take!

    what you said at the meeting was pretty relevant, too. not “too relevant” if you know what i mean.

  2. shelley says:

    Andrea, I long for and pray for newness and sweetness in life for you, too. We’re going to be here for you (your small army) no matter how long you need us.

    Love, Shelley.

  3. Sherry-Lee says:


    I just found out about your battle this past weekend. We have been very removed from everyone since Charlotte got sick.

    I just wanted to pop in and say that I will be praying for you guys, and I can’t believe how big all the kiddos got. Also, Clay is beautiful!

    Love and prayers,

    Sherry-Lee (Mrs. Tomcat)

  4. Andrea,
    I know it has been years since I have seen you. I have been reading your blog and I just want to say thank you so much for sharing. Even in your weakness He is strong and your words are so powerful to me. I pray that this weekend coming up will bring you so much peace and rejuvenation. Keep worshiping, I know that singing is like a direct connection to the heart of our Father. I wish I lived closer because I would love to join your small army and cook some meals for you and your family. If there is anything I could do for you please let me know.
    With Love,